Anxiety & Panic Attacks

Hey Guys It's Mal!!! So, today this is going to be a non-makeup, style or anything like that blog post. This blog post is a really serious blog post that I need to get out of my mind. So lately I have been having really really REALLY bad anxiety and panic attacks. This could be due to all the stress I have been having lately with school, life, and other things going on. Today, I had 5 panic attacks at school and at home. One was really bad. The baddest I had have in a LONG time. If you guys didn't know I have really bad anxiety. Not sure if I told you guys that, but yeah I get bad anxiety. When it comes to talking to people, going to parties, going to any place basically, crowned places, heights, and very large groups of people. Always back to the one really bad panic attack I had today. So today, I was in piano keyboarding class and my teacher said that we are going to play the piano to her out loud for the class to hear from the lesson we are at. So, I had a really bad panic attack. It was so bad that I was shaking, my heart was beating super fast, and that panic feeling ran all throughout my body. It felt like someone was pulling me under water and they were letting me drown. It gotten so bad that I still have the panic feeling. The last time I had a kinda panic attack like that was last summer in 2016. When I thought someone was following me in Target and when I thought someone stole my purse in Walmart. Which turns out no one was following me in Target or stole my purse in Walmart. After the situation happened in Target and in Walmart that panic feeling went away. This time it feels like that panic feeling isn't going away anytime soon. Back to my bad panic attack, the teacher didn't listen to me not yet at least.

Another kinda panic attack that happen was the other day when I was trapped by my locker. I have the bottom locker at school and when I was done with getting stuff out of my locker. A large group of people was crowing around the boy that is next to my locker locker. I was trapped! It scared me so much. I was almost about to cry  and shake. The boys noticed and move out of the way. That I guess was not really a panic attack...

So friends, I have no idea what to do. If any of you have any suggestions of how I can handle my non-stop panic attacks let me know in the comments.  
Until Next Time,
Mal